A Prayer for Loneliness After a Breakup

Lord, the bed is too big tonight, and my hand keeps reaching for someone who is not there. I still know their coffee order, their laugh, the way the door used to sound when they came home. Now the door stays shut.

I confess I am angry and grieving at the same time, and underneath both is a fear I can barely whisper, that maybe I am hard to love, that I will always end up on this side of the goodbye.

So I bring You the version of me that feels rejected and raw. You do not flinch at my mess. You move toward the brokenhearted instead of away from them.

Heal the part of me that measured my worth by whether someone stayed. Be close to me in this fracture, for You are near to the brokenhearted and You save those crushed in spirit.

I release them, slowly, and I release the future I had built in my head. Tonight I trade the empty space beside me for the steady company of the God who chose me first and will not change His mind. Amen.