A Prayer for Healing from Addiction

Father, the craving is loud tonight, louder than my promises to myself, and I am sitting here white-knuckling an urge that has beaten me more times than I can count. I am so tired of waking up ashamed of what I did the night before.

I confess I have lied to the people I love and to myself, sworn this was the last time and meant it, then watched my own hands betray me again. The shame feeds the wanting, and the wanting feeds the shame, and I cannot break the loop on my own.

So I stop pretending I am strong enough alone. You specialize in the things that are impossible for us. I bring You the part of me that wants to be free and the part that is terrified to try.

Stand with me in this exact hour. Loosen the chain one link at a time. Send me people who will not let me hide, and the courage to call them before I fall.

You promised that where my strength runs out, Yours is made perfect, that the One who began a good work in me will carry it to completion. Carry this. Get me through tonight clean, Father, and then tomorrow, and then the day after that. Amen.