A Prayer for Freedom from Addiction

Father, I am tired in a way sleep does not touch. The thing I keep returning to has hollowed me out, and I am ashamed of how many times I have promised myself this was the last, only to wake up back in the same place with the same craving humming under my skin.

I confess I have called it my comfort when it was really my cage. I have hidden it, bargained with it, let it cost me more than I ever meant to pay. I am done pretending I can outrun this on my own strength.

So I bring the whole truth of it to You, the part I show no one. You already see it. You are not turning away.

Break the grip of this thing on my body and my mind. Where it has worn a deep groove in me, carve a new path. Send me people who will hold the rope when my hands give out, and help me reach for them without shame.

You promised that whoever the Son sets free is free indeed. I am asking for that freedom, not someday, but in the small choices of this hour.

I cannot loosen these chains myself, so I place my wrists in Your hands. Be the strength that finishes what I keep starting. Lead me out into open air. Amen.