A Prayer When Grief Keeps Me Awake at Night

Father, the bed feels too big and too empty tonight. The house is quiet in a way it never used to be, and the silence keeps reminding me of who is missing. The night is when the grief comes back hardest.

I confess I do not know how to lie down with this loss. The tears come without warning, and I am tired of crying and tired of being tired. Part of me does not want to sleep, as if sleeping means moving on, and I am not ready.

So I bring this aching, hollowed out heart to You, the only one who was there for every memory I am replaying.

Sit with me in the dark. You do not need me to be finished grieving or to say the right thing. Just be near while the waves move through me.

You promised to be close to the brokenhearted and to save the crushed in spirit. I am both tonight. Come close. Save me from drowning in this.

I cannot fix the empty place tonight, but You can hold me inside it. Let my tears give way to a few hours of mercy. Carry me to morning. Amen.