A Prayer for Anxiety and Depression

God, I am caught between two weights that should cancel out but only crush. The anxiety races and the depression drags, so my mind sprints while my body cannot get off the floor. I am wired and exhausted at once, afraid of everything and able to enjoy nothing.

I confess I feel broken in a way I cannot explain to anyone, and ashamed that faith has not made it vanish. I wonder some days if You are even there in the gray.

So I bring this whole tangled mess to You, not cleaned up, just as it is. You are not disappointed by my struggle. You are not waiting for me to feel better before You come close.

Hold both ends of this for me, the panic and the heaviness. Help me reach for the small mercies, a meal, a walk, an honest text to a friend, a call to someone who can help carry this. Let me treat asking for help as faith and not failure.

You said You are near to the brokenhearted and You save the crushed in spirit. Be that nearness in the gray where I cannot feel You.

I lay my whole weary self into Your hands. I do not have to fix this tonight. Stay with me in the dark, send me real help, and remind me that even here, especially here, I am not alone. Amen.