A Prayer for When You Feel Like Giving Up
Father, I am out of road. My chest is tight, my hands feel heavy, and the thought has come more than once today that it would be easier to stop. To stop trying, stop pretending, stop being here. I am whispering this to You because I do not have the strength to say it out loud.
I confess I am not sure I believe things will change. I have prayed before and woken to the same gray morning. I am tired of being told to hold on when my grip is already raw.
But I am still here, and I am turning toward You, even shaking. Come close. Do not let me make a permanent decision from inside a temporary darkness.
Keep me here, today, only today. Put a person in my path I can tell the truth to, a hand I can reach for, a number I can call. Let me believe that asking for help is not weakness but the brave thing You are calling me to do.
You said You are near to the brokenhearted and that You save the crushed in spirit. Be that nearness for me now, closer than my own breath.
I cannot carry this. So I lay the whole weight of it, and myself, into Your hands. Hold me through this hour, and then the next. You are not finished writing my story. Amen.
Stay one more day. You are worth keeping, and help is real.